By Colleen Caverly

I sit here at 5:30 in the morning, unable to sleep. As a freshman at Gallaudet University, everything that has been going on is overwhelming; I get goose bumps just thinking about it. Part of me is extremely frustrated, the other part is excited. I look around Gallaudet now, students are full of life. But why am I frustrated?

I guess I’m getting sick of arguing with my mom all the time; I am trying to convince her that Gallaudet is where I need to be right now. She is one of those overprotective parents who constantly checks the Internet for the current Gallaudet protest updates. She is also one of those parents who have threatened to pull me out of school. My mom is thinking about my future.

My future.

What is going on here?

Gallaudet University is the place where I am supposed to strive, both educationally and socially. So far, socially, I am doing okay; but educationally…well, let’s just say that it is kind of hard to get an education when there are no classes. Like every other student, I am happy that I can sleep in and not have to worry about sitting through class. Student leaders are telling us to not go to our classes, that the school is not open until we say it is open.

But we do not control our grades. The only way we control our grades is by doing our homework and showing up for classes. I, like other students, feel guilty going to class when I know I could be fighting for something bigger than me. Yet I have to think about myself, and the consequences I could suffer if I didn’t go to class. Why am I being denied my right to be educated at my school of choice? Why do I have to worry about where I am going to be next semester, where my friends will be, and what this campus will look like?

I don’t want Dr. Jane Fernandes (JK) to be the next president as much as the next person, but really, is she the problem we need to attack right now? The way I see it, there are a whole bunch issues that need to be addressed; all of which have been approached, one way or another. What is going on at Gallaudet is like a huge river, built upon by many tributaries. JK is only a tributary. All of these problems started with the Board of Trustees, JK is their end-product that they are willing to stand behind through thick and thin. They will not let her resign.

This Blog will make my mother proud, she has effectively brainwashed me. In the midst of all the arguing we have had these past few days, she has said a few things that make sense. She told me that she feels that we should attack the BOT, rather than the individual. Compromise should occur, rather than radical behavior. The power of protest has been practiced too often. It didn’t work last may, why should it work now?

Where is the compromising and negotiating? When the student leaders finally had a chance to meet with some people that could help make a difference for the future of Gallaudet during a three-hour long meeting, finally making some progress, we had to take the protest to the next level. Why couldn’t we have stayed put for a while? Why couldn’t we wait to see where the negotiation would take us?

Realistic demands should be put on the table, something that the “other side” can give us. Both sides can stand strong; neither willing to back down. I want to see a win-win, not lose-lose solution. The win-win solution is to have an investigator come and research the presidential search process. The lose-lose situation is the Gallaudet shutdown because there is nothing for Gallaudet to run on, except to become the home of protesting students. I, personally, do not want to see the latter.

I don’t know, maybe JK really is breaking down; maybe the BOT really is starting to crumble. We are fighting and fighting strong. We are finally being heard. But how long will this last? What will happen when this fight continues through the next few months? What will happen in January?

Why can’t we be the initiator?

Let us be the first ones to step down. While some may think that is a sign of weakness, I prefer to look at it from an optimistic point of view, it could be a sign of strength and courage. It could show that we care about our future, not only as a community here at Gallaudet, but as individuals as well.

I want to see a better Gallaudet. But a better Gallaudet is not going to happen overnight. It is a long, slow, grueling process that needs to take place. I understand that some of you may read this and say that I don’t know what I’m talking about, that the protest is a last-resort course of action. Trust me, I know. I want us to win.

No matter what happens, I will always wear my Buff and Blue proudly. I will always say, “Unity For Gallaudet!” or as it is signed at the end of every rally: “Gallaudet. Unite. Same.”

Colleen Caverly was born and raised just north of Detroit, Michigan, and is currently a freshman at Gallaudet University (Class of 2010). She has not decided on a major yet, but she is leaning towards Deaf Studies.


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